Books

Yesterday I went with mum to the shops, I resisted the urge to buy or look at anything really for babies but hot a water bottle to take to school to give my babies their 2 litres of water a day. I got some large trousers and big tops, with the hope I might grow into them, and a book about baby development and a pregnancy journal. I was reticent about the books jic, but I came to the conclusion I would rather have a happy memento than no record and a denial, so every day I will hope against hope for a reason to write in my journal, all the way to and beyond the end.

I will try to stay calm at work, I will eat all the right things and continue not drinking. I never thought I would find it easy, but somehow it has been.

I have asked mum to join freecycle and look out for stuff for me, she didn't seem all that fussed, freecycle clearly irritates her, but I hope she will put her irritation aside and try, I thought it was a nice way to involve her that she would like and that she could send the boys to pick things up, we'll see :-)