Sleeping and Dreaming

I have been off writing a bit. when I'm not at work I'm asleep and in the first week back at work, one of the managers at my school decided to search for peoples names and personal details On the Internet. and found some info on my blog and decided to make reference to some fairly innocuous postings in a meeting with the whole of the teaching staff present, all in the name of eSafety for the kids. Needless to say despite raising the readership of my terminally dull blog -which was created purely to keep up with what the kids are doing, which when you're an Ict teacher is exhausting-, by about 100% he is not my favourite man, and Because of his clear interest in me (sic) I have changed my name on a support website and been generally guarded since I realised posts in the forums are very easily tracable in Google! my folly having a name similar to my personal email but still very distressing for a hormonal lady who no longer sleeps between pees.


Anyway I had my first scan on Thursday I already knew I had a high Hcg so suspected twins, but apparently the Herts and Essex 3 for the price of 2 offer was rather literal in my case and one of my embabies is now 2 and I am looking at tripple buggies. I am delighted but terrified, the consultant looked more terrified than me, obviously this is now a very high risk pregnancy, and I am worried about losing them.

Despite being only 8 weeks I made a decision to tell my head teacher as the consultant said the pregnancy could run upto 3 months earlier than the usual 9 months; just the kind of shock he needed after recently promoting me. He was about as kind as he could be, suggested telling the Vice Principal and the assistant principal for staff. but telling no one else not even my line manager until it is 12 weeks. The former I found out went straight out of his office and told another member of staff, literally within the hour.

I wonder what it is about the men where I work!

Terrified

Can't sleep

3 is the magic number

Oh my word.....

33 weeks to go

I am so delighted, 7 weeks today apparently my embabied are the size of blueberries :-)

Fingers crossed!
still got cramping pains boobs still hurting, still knackered.

Have decided to limit tests, don't want to miscarry because of something I've selected to do and I have researched Downs and whilst it isn't some thing one would hope for, it wouldn't be the end of the world

8807

On Friday week 5 I had a blood test for hcg. I got the result on Monday 8807 apparently on this day it would normally be upto 3200, so I might have my twins! So excited. Scan on 24th can't wait, but very anxious everything is ok

Hen night

I have come home early, I don't feel tired look I couldn't stay out butI was worried about the toll the whole day would take to my system, so I was a girlie woose and came home early, I hope it is helping ;-) I must admit to being anxious over lots of things

Hope

Today I got £100 Tesco todler and baby vouchers from double clubcard deals bought some half and some 1/3 price items.

I know it's only 5 weeks tomorrow but I feel hopeful.
We got some real bargains, lots of bottles and nappy wrapping stuff and a breast pump and pads nice! Spent £64.85 can't believe how much it should have been. Babies are blinking expensive :-)

I am very hopeful :-)
Fingers crossed.

First proper day back at school, exhausted.
A couple of people know I'm pregnant but hopefully I can keep it under wraps :-)

Fat belly

Weird I have lost weight since being pregnant, my boobs still hurt and last night my stomach was so hard and swollen high up Richard laughed that my
( . ) is bigger than my (.)(.)

I still don't feel sick.

Pink lines

They are getting darker, fingers crossed

Sickness

Should I be happy that I don't feel sick? I have very strange pains that I am hoping are growing pains, in my tummy behind the line between my stomache and poohpoohlala, I hope it's normal! I have read some pretty scary stuff about how in labour they cut between your anus and vagina, these sort of things sound just a bit more and make me hope at full term I could be abducted by aliens who could magically make it all happen with no pain no drugs and then deliver me back to my house well and a happy mum the morning, I guess that service could cost a bit :-)