12 Weeks

yesterday was 12 weeks, I could not be more pleased!
Next week we have a scan to see how the munchkins are, I have to say I am meant to start feeling full of energy and blooming but at the moment I just feel blinking knackered, and still feel sick.

I have stopped taking the pessaries, because by now I should have enough progestergone going around my body with the volume of placenta I've got :-)

I have felt a bit down this week. R is busy with work and Children and on the days that he hasn't been busy with work and children he has had plans to go out.
He did relent yesterday and spend the evening with me when he realised, how miserable I was. I still feel very isolated where we live.
Maybe this will all change if I am successful with baking my muffins.

I worry constantly about what will happen, although I try not to, it is hard not to.
A couple of weeks ago I watched videos of women getting about who have quads and how big they are, the problem is there seem to be lots of stories, where the babies don't all end up fine, and of course, this is very upsetting, particularly when you are prone to feeling a bit tearful anyway.

R's parents called the other day 1 week after we gave them our news, they are still upset that there are triplets, but there we go. I think they forget that despite the fact R has done all of this getting engaged, married and having children before, I haven't and they do struggle with showing much enthusiasm. Of course, I try not to take it too personally, but if J says anything about reducing the number again to me, I might show him the red card in a big big way and suggest a trip to a European Clinic! 3 babies wasn't the plan, it will be difficult, it will be expensive but it will also be a blessing, and I couldn't love them more already.

I should have written more than I have.....

....my trousers are starting to feel tight. And amusingly the last thing I wrote about my stomach was "I still don't feel sick" pahhhh.....

Well that was then, I have been feeling queasy for ages, I haven't thrown up but I am feeling delicate.

I am still over the moon, people at work are happy for me, some of the pupils have started gossiping....
I wonder how they found out!?!?
Who knows....
Not that I really mind to be fair.

Anyway, I am more tired than I have ever been with more to do than I ever remember having to do ever.
I am very slightly overwhelmed.

I am also terrified of getting swine flu particularly since a girl in my form has a confirmed case of it, and there are pupils looking very unwell all around me. :-(

Well I am going to get the vaccination but I am still not going to get the adjuvant vaccine, it is too much of a risk when it hasn't been tested, I am just not going to take that kind of risk.

I must call the doctors though and make the appointment.

:-)xxx

2nd scan

We went for the second scan last Thursday it was absolutely magical, all the babies are the right size, the third one, one of the identical twins had his bum to us so we couldn't see much, but the other two, wriggled and danced :-)

It really was fantastic.

I posted the video on FaceBook and so far it has been viewed 311 since Friday evening, in the first hour it was over 100 and by the next morning over 200.
I have all my fingers and toes crossed!

We did go see R's parents, they were mixed in their reaction but hey, you can't please all the people all the time. They will get over it. R and I are happy.


Nx

All is not well in the JF household

I am knackered, not just a little bit tired but like, more tired than I have ever been in my life. On a good day I just feel like I've been up at a great aunts all night party.

I am worried about the future in every way I can be while R seems to have his head so deep in the sand who knows where it will come up.

L made it clear that the idea of my children bein in any way related to her was a shock and that helping a small child would be completely beyond her remit. A is A and is not very aware of abyones needs but his own slot of the time.

R spends all his evenings working, gets up at 6:30 makes his sandwiches and some crumpets for brekfast and now manages to make me a slice of toast. I an begining to wonder how he would help with a small child, or more than 1 small child.
Am I going to end up living in the same house as some one I only see when I make him dinner?
Well at least my blood pressure is probably high enough now for a good Vein at the blood test

Appointments

Blood tests today and a scan tomorrow, I am very excited and terrified, I just want everything to be ok, I am still terrified of losing them because there are three but I am hopeful, and I love all my limes already :-)

10 Weeks

"Most pregnant women find themselves getting distressed easily and have frequent mood swings"

I think I am still in post traumatic shock from Andrew screaming like a banshee because he got cramp when he was watching TV the other day, I had nodded off. But I was scared half out of my wits.

"Common physical changes include the beginning of real weight gain",

I am slightly worried because I have lost weight, I hope it is because I haven't been drinking.

"Common emotional changes include feelings of unattractiveness, feelings of inadequacy and concerns about what the future holds."

I'm alright apart from the what does the future hold question, we can't afford 1 let along 3.

"It is not uncommon to get upset easily, cry at the slightest things, feel moody or drift on daydreams."

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Any one who sleeps as little as I do at the moment would drift off.

I do feel a bit upset, I was upset the children were so angry and clearly peeved, and don't seem to be even a tiny bit happy if not for themselves then at least for me and their dad, maybe it is too much to ask.

And I was upset that Richard's sister Jo thought we should tell his parents on the telephone because they wouldn't be happy that I am pregnant with triplets.

Well we will give them the chance to be happy, but should I hold out much hope!?!

Mostly this week, I am absolutely delighted that we have made it to the end of week 10! :-)

Work and pay

How are we ever going to manage on my salary. The maternity pay at school is probably good if you only intend to use your income as pin money but if you have the main salary, it's pretty poor. I am worried but I try not to let anything worry me too much because somehow things will be ok but I am worried.
I think we might lose the house, and in some ways if the alternative is that I spend most of my waking life at school and miss my children growing up, is rather be in a council house bludging for a few years, working hard has not really paid off the way it should have done.

At the moment though, nothing and nobody can steal my sunshine :-) I have 3 embabies.
:-)

Last night I saw a triplet ceasarian birth on Tv, scary as. Really scary. Wish I hadn't seen it but hey they gotta come out somehow and I think that's the best way.