All is not well in the JF household

I am knackered, not just a little bit tired but like, more tired than I have ever been in my life. On a good day I just feel like I've been up at a great aunts all night party.

I am worried about the future in every way I can be while R seems to have his head so deep in the sand who knows where it will come up.

L made it clear that the idea of my children bein in any way related to her was a shock and that helping a small child would be completely beyond her remit. A is A and is not very aware of abyones needs but his own slot of the time.

R spends all his evenings working, gets up at 6:30 makes his sandwiches and some crumpets for brekfast and now manages to make me a slice of toast. I an begining to wonder how he would help with a small child, or more than 1 small child.
Am I going to end up living in the same house as some one I only see when I make him dinner?
Well at least my blood pressure is probably high enough now for a good Vein at the blood test