We cut our break short and went to the clinic on Friday and had a scan; all good, we needn't have taken the drugs around the country with us in a cool box though as we couldn't start taking them until the scan had been done! We could apparently have gone in on Tuesday or Wednesday to start the next part of the protocol, which does beg the question why did we have an appointment made for the following Monday for us? Apparently the Monday was the very last day as it was nearly the outside 10 days from when my period started....
I do find the lack of clarity and the wooliness of the whole IVF thing a bit worrying, particularly since with a possibly short cycle which I had said I do sometimes have, the Monday would have been horribly late!
So the scan showed that the burger lips kind of womb image that was on the scan 2 days prior to my period had gone. This was a good thing apparently. Shows that there is no activity. So we went home and my lovely husband injected me with some Gonal F, apparently I am going to need more than we have and its about £320 for a box with two days doses! and I need about 4
Arghhhh......
The bills just keep on rolling in and they keep getting bigger, so at the time when you aren't supposed to get stressed, should be pampering yourself and having a relaxing time, theres all these bills with Zeros on to put paid to any sweet dreams.
And they shouldn't really have been unexpected, I don't really understand why they werent' just ordered in the first place. Again another of the little things that seem to be really unscientifically organised in a really scientific place.
The drugs are really starting to kick in with the headaches and the dizziness.
Despite feeling as loopy as laces on a kid's first pair of Dunlp Green Flash, I am really very positive about this experience and really bloody terrified. I think that looking into other people's posts on websites worries me a bit, and I might need that support network in the fullness of time, but I somehow feel different and separate, still a little bit like we haven't even started yet. Is that a good thing or a bad thing?
I keep telling myself that it will work first time and that if it doesn't and we've got some frozen Embryos that isn't a bad thing, but the truth is juggling this with work and everything would be crap and I rather unrealistically want it to work first time, and I believe that it could, I really do believe it.
I know that we have been spectacularly unlucky so far. ie. Vasectomy -> Vasectomy reversal -> can't get IVF on NHS because of Vasectomy. but I would like one thing to work in our favour.
Because as selfish as it sounds I can't imagine getting old without having a child of my own.
That sounds so wrong but it is the truth.
So many websites filled with amateur science why you should eat pineapple why you shouldn't drink gatorade, it is all enough to make my head explode.
Which is how it feels most of the time these days anyway.
I do find the lack of clarity and the wooliness of the whole IVF thing a bit worrying, particularly since with a possibly short cycle which I had said I do sometimes have, the Monday would have been horribly late!
So the scan showed that the burger lips kind of womb image that was on the scan 2 days prior to my period had gone. This was a good thing apparently. Shows that there is no activity. So we went home and my lovely husband injected me with some Gonal F, apparently I am going to need more than we have and its about £320 for a box with two days doses! and I need about 4
Arghhhh......
The bills just keep on rolling in and they keep getting bigger, so at the time when you aren't supposed to get stressed, should be pampering yourself and having a relaxing time, theres all these bills with Zeros on to put paid to any sweet dreams.
And they shouldn't really have been unexpected, I don't really understand why they werent' just ordered in the first place. Again another of the little things that seem to be really unscientifically organised in a really scientific place.
The drugs are really starting to kick in with the headaches and the dizziness.
Despite feeling as loopy as laces on a kid's first pair of Dunlp Green Flash, I am really very positive about this experience and really bloody terrified. I think that looking into other people's posts on websites worries me a bit, and I might need that support network in the fullness of time, but I somehow feel different and separate, still a little bit like we haven't even started yet. Is that a good thing or a bad thing?
I keep telling myself that it will work first time and that if it doesn't and we've got some frozen Embryos that isn't a bad thing, but the truth is juggling this with work and everything would be crap and I rather unrealistically want it to work first time, and I believe that it could, I really do believe it.
I know that we have been spectacularly unlucky so far. ie. Vasectomy -> Vasectomy reversal -> can't get IVF on NHS because of Vasectomy. but I would like one thing to work in our favour.
Because as selfish as it sounds I can't imagine getting old without having a child of my own.
That sounds so wrong but it is the truth.
So many websites filled with amateur science why you should eat pineapple why you shouldn't drink gatorade, it is all enough to make my head explode.
Which is how it feels most of the time these days anyway.
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