Lovely Cuddles

Such a lot of lovely cuddles yesterday.

And I can't belive it today there are two of my lovely ladies in one cot today.Daria and Isobel look so cute, I am dying to go and see them. :-)

Crazy Crazy Crazy

I think I must be in a parallel universe where all the normal people have been replaced with screaming, alcofrolics who are bonkers as a box of frogs.... What has really worried me is that I don't believe everyone in an NHS hospital can be as crazy as the people I am in a bay with really crazy people, so am I being categorised with these dribbling, snivelling wrecks or am I just unlucky, can anyone be that unlucky twice?

The new lady in my bay has been telling how she is barred from Tesco for shop lifting. Decided to leave her partner yesterday, clearly not one for small gestures, she got a ticket to italy, got arrested for stealing at the airport and was so drunk she wasnt allowed to take the plane, her "partner" subsequently had to collect her from custody bring her to the hospital, and she was calling him between 4:30 and 6:30am to bereate him for not leaving any fags! F*** me I would have left her in the cells. The original crazy lady told her that once you get checked out of here with "their problems" you can get home help and counsellors, I want blinking home help and counsellors. All is quiet now though because partner, bought her her fags and by the smell of it some more booze, maybe he's hoping it will finish her off. Is this the norm and I'm just lucky because my friends family and colleagues are "relatively" normal???????????

Oh Happy Days

Today was a good and a bad day for our family, depending on how seriously one wants to take the Drs which is a very difficult question, since they often give way too much information that often ends up being completely irrelevant and has just served to give worry where it was not necessary.
I find myself today being perhaps the only person I know to be delighted to have gallstones, that is because since November I have been sick, sick sick and in agony and on New Year’s eve the scan didn’t show the stones and now the stones are very evident.
In the mean time I have been given no end of tests for different things, to find out what is wrong, and all have been negative, but the chances are the gallstones were hiding! So now I have an illness that has a name that can be treated, I will be in hospital and will be having some surgery on Tuesday, with a camera and an umbrella. I had a nice Dr Matthew explain it all.
My liver tests came back today worse than ever over 500, and they are meant to be between 0 and 50, I wonder what has caused it to be so high?!?
So that is good news and bad news, but I feel that overall it is good news.
But it highlights the how seriously one should take what the Drs say, today I have found out Isobel has a problem with her red blood cells breaking down, but it could be something that passes like a virus, but it is difficult to say, firstly because she still has my blood because her spleen is to immature to make all her own stuff. Secondly because she had a blood transfusion this week. I am given to believe that blood transfusions on neonates is fairly run of the mill stuff but, not the broken down blood cells. I really really hope that this is just another one of those things that the Dr tells you that you wish they hadn’t because it just really really worries you for no apparent reason in the end. Or at the very most serious she has the beta thalassaemia trait that I have, and nothing more serious.
Also Aurelia had a problem with passing urine, which may have been nothing but may be something, I just have no idea. When the two identical twins are together at least the doctors can check each for what the other has.
I love my little ladies so much.
Daria made me laugh so hard today, I was changing her bum and she weed, nothing strange there, they all do that to me. What was funny was when I thought I had cleaned it up, she did a liquid pooh that came out at straight up and hit the side of the cot with such ferocity it was like a water pistol with yellow water. Not a pretty sight. Nasty Pasty....
I hope it didn’t hurt her, the nurses said a lot of the babies do it, so it is normal, so I have my fingers crossed that it was just funny and didn’t hurt.
They are so funny and so mischievous already I am sure of it.
The best news of the day, ignoring all the worrying things that we can do nothing about but hope and pray, is that Richard has got a job at the school that he really wanted to teach at. It sounds like exactly the place he wanted to go, I am hoping this is a fabulous start for our family. It will be hard when the girls come home for sure. But I hope that we will manage some how 
If this job works out we will be able to spend time together in the holidays as a family, it will be fantastic.
I am simply delighted.
How lucky are we, the girls are growing and appear to be doing well, I know what is wrong with me and will get better, Richard has a job and we will all be together one day soon.

Sleep

I managed to pursuade the nurses that if they moved me to the Electrocardiogram room/cupboard that I wouldn't sue or report them to the Cambridge Evening News. I think it would be fairer to say I begged and sobbed uncontrollably until they moved me.
I had to have more morphine last night the first dose was diluted as it was supposed to be intravenous and it didn't work at all. The second dose did and I fell asleep I do get how one gets addicted if it's ability to take away pain diminishes so quickly.

I got back to my bed space at around 6:30 and the lady next to me in the bay was already up and talking to the walls.

I was wondering if I have time before my scan to see the ladies. I had a lot of lovely cuddles yesterday with Daria and Isobel. They have said they are trying to get back the girls back together by moving Aurelia in the next couple of days :-)
Fingers crossed.

Why do I get all the crazies

I have been moved from the side room to a room with a much improved view but an absolutely crazy person beside me.
She wanted to show me the brown toilet liners earlier, which after the dirty one on the window sill of the bathroom last night.

I really can't cope there is a noise coming from her drip a wailing noise every time someone presses the buzzer and the crazy lady talking to me I have asked to be allowed to go home until tomorrow morning.

On top of this I am meant to be expressing milk every 3 hours with crazy woman probably giving me a commentary aaaaarrggggg.......

D5

I've been really poorly with the same liver problems as I had when pregnant and had to get morphine injections two nights running. I couldn't believe if you call out of hours Dr now instead of going to A and E you have to drive to Chesterton to see an out of hours doctor! So last night I came to A and E and I've been admitted. I shouldve brought the breast pump it's been a nightmare, leaking everywhere and I'm worried the milk will dry up.
Daria and isobel are really cloose too but I can't see them :-(
I will get better but I am a bit peed off as I really hoped the pains and sickness would stop after the girls were born. The girls are changing every day :-) they are so beautiful




Daria


Aurelia


Isobel

I still find it hard to believe they can be mine. Maybe I'll feel different when they are all at home screaming :-)

I really wish Richard's Gtp course wasn't so relentless he just gets no time for anything. And I have felt guilty about needing to go to the hospital and the medical centre because if the pressure that will be put on him.
We will get through it. Funny there was a thing on the news about divorce being higher for twin triplet parents. I hope that is not us :-)

Runaround

Yesterday Isobel moved to Addenbrookes so today I am visiting Aurelia on her own.


Her Saturation Level has been beeping a lot but she looks well enough....

Expressing at cot side


....I have just given her a cotton bud dipped in milk (got it all down my trousers where I detatched the bottle. Silly me. She seems to have enjoyed it her SpO2 level is up :-)


I love the little ladies so so so much.

Yesterday Laura and Andrew met Daria for the first time. Laura couldn't bare to look when I changed her nappy. She said "I can't even clean up after the dogs" god help her children if she has any they will be eating bonio and going for walkies :-)

This morning I saw Nina and Freddie for a few minutes after the dentist. She has given up expressing. It isn't just me who hates doing it. And Aaron's mummy in scbu here has given up too. Seems for lots of mummies it is very stressful and does it's own thing.

I will do my best.

Three weeks old tomorrow

Such a lot of things I should have written.
But I have been knackered.

Richard has been getting a really hard time at School too.
Mum has been taking me between Weat Suffolk and home and Addenbrookes.


Aurelia and Isobel are still at Addenbrookes and Daria is making good progress too.

Both Isobel and Autrlia had different infections. The results indicate that Aurelia may have had meningitis.

Gosh it has been an anxious time.

Mum got The ladies a Peg Pereggo triplette So the girls cab go to the park in safety,comfort and style :-)

Richard's parents have been rather smitten by the girls and have made trips to get me to the hospitals and smile at the girls.

They are starting to get hamster cheeks




Isobel




Aurelia




Daria

Some times I wonder what they can and can't see because they do seem to see.

They are growing so quickly.

I wish they were all together. Dr Kelso at addenbrookes net with me and Richard and. Kept saying things like "I can assure you you are not being picked on or victimised", "I know you must think I am a mean horrible man" lots if things that didn't actually occur to me, but I am hoping that they will get the Girls back to Cambridge.

Babies in W Suffolk

I gave spoken to Mary at W Suffolk today to get an update on the girls. Isobel is off CPAP for 4hrs in every 12 and has 8ml of milk every hour. Apparently she is doing well.

Aurelia is getting better and is getting 1hr off CPAP today and 2.5ml of milk at the moment which goes up every 4 hours by .5ml she was apparently very unhappy with having CPAP in the night and wriggling lots.

Mary said not to feel guilty about not coming fir a day and taking a rest day. And that later it would be more important to see the babies properly when they are bigger.

I have booked a date too to register the babies birth :-)
In the Easter holidays the first Wednesday in Shire Hall.

I am going too to see Asnat today.
She is very supportive, although. Sometimes she scares me a little with her stories so I need to manage myself around her, but she is very kind. She has offered to make me lunch to take with me today :-)

Well I am off to see Daria in Addenbrookes she looked so much better last night :-)
I was very happy.

I couldn't love them more.

C section day

Yesterday should have been the girls birthday. But of course ever eager to join the world. They chose their own day. What more or less could I expect from my ladies? I wouldn't have been able to wait either :-)

Aurelia was a lot better today but I am still afraid for her.
She set alarms of while I was pumping, and so they had to remove her ventilation tube, when they did they found it was full of snot. So it wasn't really helping with breathing. So they put her back on CPAP which didn't quite fit properly. The student nurse was on the case chasing the Senior nurse but we had to leave to see Daria.


Isobel is so much better than she was and the blood collection shows she has a different bug to Aurelia!










When we got to Addenbrookes I went to see Sarah and the lovely nurses in the annexe. I did spend some time in the twighlight zone getting a post natal check up. They are a different breed of midwife on the other side. I saw aunty midwife Natalie who was caring for me the day the girls came. :-) She is so lovely and looked after me so well. Even getting me wholemeal rice and diabetic treats when I had gestational diabetes.
I saw the lovely MCA Ros who told me she was 'surprised' that the LM dark side had wanted to discharge me so quickly.

Richard took many trips to pack my stuff from Ellesworth house.
Then we went to see Daria.

Daria is drinking 2ml of milk, spends 5 hours off CPAP twice a day

Isobel is poorly

I have just had a call from the hospital from Mary one if the nurses to say Isobel has not had a good night. She seems to be telling me it is a dip and that it isn't too bad; but it is still terrifying. I wish the babies were all closer.
I am so worried.
I called the hospital back because I didn't take in really what they said. But they are removing her long line. I now have no idea if that is a good thing or a bad thing.